I’m Jenny, and I’m Fat

Weight loss has been a huge struggle for me in the past.  My entire life, actually.  I love food.  It doesn’t judge you, it’s there for you when you need it, it eats up time when you’re bored, and is basically a friend.  Of course when you eat too much food, you gain weight (duh).  I have a horrible body image.  I grew up thinking that I wasn’t good enough if I wasn’t thin, being fat = being less of a person, what have you.  There was a time in my 30’s when I did end up losing 160lbs.  I managed to stay at my goal weight for about a year.  

Then my SO and I broke up. 

Then my depression went through the roof.

Then the pounds began to creep back, as my coping mechanism was again, food. 

So after about 2-3 years being fat, I’m going to try this again.  I did have a pretty significant come to Jesus moment, which led to this decision.  Facebook lovingly displayed “on this day 3 years ago,” and 3 years ago there was a picture of me on a carousel.  Not fat, but thin.  “What did I DO to myself?” was my first thought.  The second was the obiturate decision to lose weight.  I joined Noom, and I joined several weight loss groups on Facebook for support.  My boyfriend does want to lose weight too.  The plan is 1200 calories a day, eating a good balance of  food to make weight loss and maintenance sustainable. 

Fingers crossed!